Ramblings of the Unimportant

I have decided to live on purpose! I know this seems like a concept that was taught yesterday....but I admit I skipped a lot of classes in high school. I was listening to the radio this morning and realized that I too am just going through the motions and life is totally passing me by! I know that God created me for something MUCH greater and who am I to decide not to use my gifts for the greater good. I'm no one that's who! {I feel that it's only necessary to also admit that I am a serial exclamation point and smiley face user-I'll have to work on that too} I have been feeling like a member of the 'left behind' group for some time now, but I suppose I am finally ready to commit to changing. My first step in removing my mask is to openly admit the things that I hide from everyone, and by everyone I AM including myself. Self deception is a mask of the worst kind! If I don't admit who I truly am then how am I going to expect others to accept me?  Here go...

       WOW! Is all I can start with!! What a remarkable month October has turned out to be. I knew it would be a lot to swallow but in the end November has to be better, right? Let's see...where to begin??? I celebrated the 3yr anniversary of my father's death. I say celebrating only after 3yrs because it is a celebration of his entrance into heaven and out of physical pain! Amen! I miss him everyday, but am thankful for all of the wonderful memories I have to cherish.        My younger brother, whom I've been estranged for the last two years was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. CRaZy!! I felt like I was stepping right into all the episodes of Twilight Zone that I watched as a kid! He is only 30yrs old and is a single parent of my three little nieces. Of course I was overwhelmed with guilt the minute I discovered his fate. You see I haven't spoken to him for TWO years. We have never seen eye to eye and with...